So I just spent the last 1.5hrs browsing through Facebook…rummaging through picture albums, commenting on photos, statuses, dropping messages. Seems like I miss my social life.
And by all counts, I really do.
Can’t decide if it’s the job..or the bf…or if it’s really juz me and a new phase of life, but WHERE IS MY HAPPENING LIFE??!!! I FREAKING WANT IT BACK!!!!
Sigh.
I miss being able to call in sick whenever. To slack and still get paid. To my measly but regular paychecks. To listen and be an avid contributor to the lunchtime gossip. To the “sacred” wkends and afterwork drinks. I’m, in general, tired to budgeting my spending and to allocate a pile for the “dry spells”. 
Oh well. The grass is always greener on the otherside, isn’t it? Point is, I need to start making a whole load more money to make myself feel better.
Well wat to do?
Anyway....
How far will u be willing to go before u give up..was a question i asked myself recently.
Exactly wat constitutes being on a good BGR? In my definition, a gd BGR is the opposite partner who believes tat there is still some gd left in me when everyone else tinks otherwise.
Someone who won’t abandon me. Someone who noes tat tis is juz a rough patch. Someone who sticks around when everyone else has gone.
Yet, it is truly difficult to find someone like this.
I’m in a dilemma now.
Someone tat I’ve known for a long, long time has been very, very irresponsible and has done me a big disservice. I’m torn btwn believing in the good in him (i.e. he had a perfect plausible and logical explanation) and awful tot tat i’m just another convenient tool to help him out of trouble.
But somehow.. he managed to tink, and we did meet out today for dinner after his gym session. I tink he noes how I feel right now. And so, for apologize, he brought me a few packets of fake tattoo which I really to me.
Sigh.....
Okie, end of it. Went to dance class today. Today, again only 3 students including me attended the dance class. Somehow, today we've learn a new song, new choreo. And I love it. But too bad, Jacky din video it down becuz, TOO LESS PEOPLE! Anyway, still thinking weather want to go on thursday dance class anot, because I still have lotsa things to be done within this week. However, today after dance class, went to have dinner with Jacky, bin bin and xin xin at S 11. I din get to eat, becuz I'm still full.
Well...
I'm still having insomnia almost everyday. Sleep at 6am, waking up at 3pm.
Can someone please help me!
